Motivation

So I've been feeling pretty sorry for myself lately. I really need to get some stuff done. Like start exercising, clean the house, apply for a home improvement loan or refinance or something. We're going to a home improvement fair this weekend, so hopefully I'll be inspired to follow through with that.

I stopped to pick up my credit report at the bank today. Again with the feeling sorry for myself. I've got good credit, even excellent by some standards. But I've got a ton of "potential debt" from stupid store credit cards that I opened just for the discount, then paid off the bill but never closed the account. Like tens of thousands of dollars of potential debt. I think I've already shredded most of the cards so it's going to be a pain to find all the phone numbers to cancel the cards. I really wish I had a personal assistant for just this kind of situation. This, and finding a pair of pants that fit right.

Jboy went to the dentist today and found out that he had two cavities. Two! Both of my babies with rotten teeth, I'm so ashamed. Macaroni sees the orthodontist tomorrow to find out if he has to have his cavities filled...they're on baby teeth. I feel so guilty because I was late getting them in for their appointments. I know it's not the end of the world, I had cavities when I was little but I just feel so bad. It's 2007, shouldn't we have found a way around this by now? Impenetrable teeth, flying cars and robotic boyfriends? Is that too much to ask for?

Watching The Departed three times in just a few days hasn't helped with my mood either, although it's doing wonders for my Boston accent. And I was right, they did miss something. I'm tempted to Netflix the second disc just to see if it's addressed in the commentary. It's a great movie but I would have voted for Sunshine instead.

We had a luncheon today at work, complete with catered meals, little gifts and a motivational speaker. He was actually really good and quite funny and although I was entertained, I was not motivated. Not even a little. We all got little zippered portfolio-type organizers. The kind you can find Target for about $20. I'm sure they got a huge discount buying in bulk, but still. It's like they don't know what we do. Never in a million years would I need this little thing for work. I might use it for a job interview...which is what almost everyone in the huge ballroom was thinking. I'd way rather have a day off than a so-so meal (the vegetarian lunch is usually really good but it was pretty crappy this year. Egg/potato/vegetable pancake thingies, way over cooked carrots & green beans and very bland rice) and a "play nice with your teammates" pep talk. When will they stop wasting money on stupid crap and just hire some more people already?

To top it off, I got a late client and missed 3 trains. Macaroni was a little snotty about getting home so late and I'm dead tired. But then, like magic, I found a little motivation in the mailbox. (Jboy had already taken in the mail but he always manages to miss at least one envelope, so I check everyday.) There it was. A letter from my friend TwoG's with a check for the Bowl A Thon. But get this, there was also a check from a woman I've never met. TwoG's had passed along my email and her friend Carla donated too. These girls are awesome. And now I'm all motivated. Or at least I promise to be tomorrow. Right now I'm going to bed.